Need a Break!

I am so sick today. I haven't been this sick in such a long time. I am just miserable today. Fortunately I didn't have to go into work today. I texted my boss and told her how sick I was and she said it was okay to just rest. I was really worried she would be mad at me and make me come in because I didn't find a replacement. She told us at the beginning of the year we had to find a replacement or we HAD to be at work. I'm just glad she wasn't mad at me. There's no way I could have worked today. Christina is sick also. She has the exact same symptoms that I do. I don't know where we got this but whatever it was it is nasty.

I need a break though from school, work, and life. I am so stressed out. I feel like all my posts are the same thing because everyday is the same ole stuff. Don't get me wrong, I love being here at HPU, I love my job at the campus concierge, I'm just really stressed with school work right now and finding a job. It will all work out with time though.

I'm seeing Lynda tomorrow for the first time in a LONG time. I dont know what exactly to talk about but she wants to see me every month. I know there are things I could/should be working through with her while I can see her and it's free..but then on days that are good I think, "Well why should I even come anymore?" I wish I could still see her after December. I wish SO badly I would have utilized her more and worked harder in therapy working through the issues that still affect me on a daily basis. I have to look at the positive side of all this, I'm going to be a graduate and hopefully employed full time and starting my new life as an adult. I just need to keep reminding myself of that.

Accounting is getting really hard. Today in class I was just sitting there so lost at what we were doing. I couldn't even begin to figure out what in the world we were suppose to do or even where to begin. I hate that feeling of being so lost in a subject, esp because we move so fast in class. I need a good grade in this class on our next test...and I'm really worried about it already! It's two weeks away! AGH!