GIANT LEGS!

This weekend was pretty hard for me. Matt and I hung out with Christina and Zach Saturday night. It was one of our friends Birthday's so we all hung out. Me and Zach started talking and I'm not exactly sure how weight got brought up...he was saying something about size and all. I said to him, "I'm not to skinny am I?" And he replied, "No! You've got some legs on you!" I was like "What?!" and then he repeated himself. Matt was standing behind me saying, "Don't say that to her, please stop!" He just continued calling me big basically. I was so shocked. I was crushed honestly. I felt like this weekend I'd finally gotten to my "goal weight." I guess you could call it. I didn't want to lose anymore because I don't want to end up back in IP. I felt actually thin. But wow was that crushed in a second. Now I feel huge and disgusting. I feel so self-conscious about my legs. All I want to do is wear baggy sweats and a hoodie. I hate this feeling. I was so upset the entire rest of the night I literally didn't say another word. I just sat there and stared off into blank space. Christina knew something was wrong, but she just thought it was cuz Nida was taking all her attention so we didn't get to hang out at all. Then Sunday all I could think about was the comment, what'd it mean? What is the solution? Was he being serious? What can I do to shrink my legs? How can I lose weight? Etc...

Well, here it is Tuesday morning...and I'm still thinking about it. I still wonder if my legs really are that big!? I know they are big and out of proportion with the rest of my body...but are they really THAT big?! I mean do people look at me and think, "WOW! She has big fat legs?!" I keep looking at them and they look huge to me! UGH!!!