Today is the last day of the semester. Exams start Friday and I have two Friday, one Saturday and one Tuesday...then I'm done done! It is so weird thinking I'll never sit in a classroom and take notes again and worry about tests/exams/quizzes/homework etc. It is just the weirdest feeling I've ever felt before. Never again will I do this. I don't know why this is just such a big thing for me. Maybe one day I'll be able to look back and think or see how this time effected me and why it effected me how it did. I just don't have any insight right now. Today is my last day of work (kind of). I don't have to work until Monday just from 3-5, then Wednesday from 3-5. I don't have to work tomorrow or Friday so it is going to be weird as well. Everything is just weird right now, I don't know how to explain it. I'm anxious and nervous...and I don't know why?
I have yet to hear anything from the job I interviewed for on Monday. I think I'm partly anxious about that as well. I want to know something, just anything! I wish they'd say, "We will let you know something by so and so!" Just so I have some clue about what is going on! I don't even know who else they are interviewing, how many people they are interviewing or anything. It bugs me. I hate not knowing things. I want to know who I'm going up against and what my chances are I'll get the job! I'd also like to know if I should keep looking for jobs. I haven't looked for any since Monday because I just feel confident about this which I hate because I should keep looking.
I need to start studying for exams, so bad. I've procrastinated ALL week which isn't like me at all. Normally I'd have most everything done by now. I just have this anxiety and I can't sit down and sit still. I feel like anxious and nervous all the time. I thought Monday it was just because I was interviewing that afternoon, but yesterday and today haven't been much better. I don't know what it is but it needs to go away. I have to much to do to worry about being anxious.
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