Christmas Eve

Today is Christmas Eve. We went to see my grand mom (my dad's mom) this afternoon. I hadn't seen her in so long it is ridiculous and embarrassing how long it has been since I've seen her. She actually did really well today. She was engaged and pretty alert. She tried to make conversation which my dad says sometimes she just sits there and won't say anything at all. So seeing her more lively was a good thing. We took Gina (our dog) over there. That made her perk up alot. She talked to the dog and said some really funny things. We (my family and my dad's sister and husband) came back to the house for just a while. Then we went to dinner at the Country Club. The food wasn't good actually. It was all like casseroles and mushed up stuff. I like PLAIN things. I don't like my green beans in a casserole where it adds a thousand more unnecessary calories. The whole POINT in green beans is HEALTHY! DUH! So, needless to say I didn't eat that much.

I'm so annoyed right now though. I feel like my parents and family ignore everything I have to say. Nothing gets acknowledged, they all just ignore my words. I seriously don't understand what is wrong with me that I get overlooked ALL the time. I swear I'm like the ugly swan. No one wants to be around me or hear my voice or look at me. Its honestly how I feel. I feel like I'm the outcast and no good for anything. No one is happy for me about anything in my life. They all just think Christina is amazing. She just gets all the attention!

Well, I'm just so happy tonight! A night that should be fun isn't fun at all!