I haven't posted in like three months. I can't believe how fast time goes. I've been so busy with my new job and just adjusting to the life of being in the real world. I like my job, I really do. It's fun, always something going on, different events all have a different feel to them. I like everyone I work with, they are all super nice and fun to work with. Everyone has a great attitude and is always trying to make work the best place it can be. I am in charge of all the cultural enrichment events, which are the events students can go to for a class. They are either speakers, concerts (music, instrumental, dance, or just anything for entertainment), they could be speakers that come and talk about prominent issues going on, it could be NC symphony, or choral concerts done by our students. They are always fun to plan, but not always fun to attend. Haha, they can be kind of boring, but I like the actual planning part of it, which is my job!
Other than work, alot more has been going on. Matt and I will be getting engaged any minute. Literally I feel like he will ask me this weekend. We had "the talk" with my parents on Wednesday night and that was the final obstacle (he said). I'm so ready! I really am. We've also been looking at houses in our spare time. We have gone to look at so many and I don't know which one we will end up with. I wanted one that got sold on Thursday, they made a full offer though and that house was alittle out of our price range so we couldn't have even competed. I'm excited for my future though with Matt. All this makes me very excited and happy! I can't even express how excited I am to plan a wedding, buy a house, and be married to Matt for the rest of my life! :-)
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
It's the Most Wonderful Time of Year!
I love this time of year. I love the warm feeling of being home, the laughs my family and Matt has together, the smell of winter, the brisk air in the mornings, the sun shining so bright during the day, drinking coffee all day long because it's cold outside, the smells of winter candles (which I'm burning right now). I just love how everyone is in such a good mood and happy. I feel like people get so caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and they never stop to think about the things that matter most: family, friends, loved ones, and just spending time together. I will never forget the saying from an old man, "You won't look back and regret not working as much, you'll look back and regret not spending enough time with your loved ones." < That is so true. I feel like I don't get to spend enough time with my dad especially. He works so much. He is always going down to the plant, even on Christmas he went down there. Not for long, but he went. I feel like it's a chore to him to spend time with me. He always has an excuse to why he can't be with me. On Monday we had to BEG him to come eat lunch with Christina and Mom and me. He finally decided he "could" come. It's just like the biggest challenge to get him to talk about anything but work. He doesn't ever want to talk at night. He wants to eat, then watch tv. He always says we will talk about things later in the morning, "over coffee" which never happens. I'm going to regret not being able to talk to him one day. I regret it now. I wish he had more time for me. I ask him about things all the time and he just says he can't talk about it right now or he doesn't want to get into it. It makes me sad. It really does. He is so emotionally absent from my life. He never asks about anything. He seems so mad every night when he comes home. He doesn't ever want to joke around or anything. Idk, I guess there's not much I can do at this point in life. Bottom line..I miss my dad!
My Christmas wasn't to great this year. I was looking so forward to these three boxes that had been under the tree for quite some time. Of course I opened them first because I'd be so anxious and puzzled at what it could be? I seriously could not figure it out. I opened the first box and they were curtains for my room. I was happy because they matched my bedding that I got this summer for my birthday. I was glad, I'd asked for them. Then I opened the second box, and it was MORE curtains for my room. Why my mom felt like I needed like 6 boxes of curtains (with two panels in each box) I don't know. I was alittle disappointed with that because I didn't need all those curtains. I needed two boxes of curtains, four panels would suit me just fine. So, excited about what the other box could have been, I opened it up...valances for the curtains...there were three boxes of those. I seriously don't know WHAT my mom was thinking when she ordered all this stuff. It totalled out to be $800.00 worth of curtains and valances. That was basically my present because I'd already gotten suits and dress clothes for my job..so I was kind of disappointed Christmas day she wasted so much money. I'm going to take them back. I kept two boxes of curtains and that was it. I don't want anything extra fancy and all...I just wanted curtains to match my bedding. I was very disappointed on Christmas. I'd really and truly thought I was getting a car. My dad had been hinting and joking with me about it for awhile. I'd sent him pictures and links all year long of cars I like and what I'd want. My mom even got the hint and talked to my dad, but he said they have to "talk later" about it. So on Christmas I asked if I could have the title to my car. I wanted the car in my name so I could then go trade it in for something I wanted. I'd seriously been thinking and thinking about this for 2 years. Its honestly ALL I've wanted [except a ring from matt ;-)] but I seriously was going to go and trade my car in this week. I want a new car SO bad. My dad got all defensive though saying I couldn't afford a car and car insurance and I should be patient. He said him and my mom wanted to help me out on a down payment but they'd want to wait until May when I walked (for graduation) and all this other stuff. He said I made him feel like he never did anything right because he didn't fulfill my wants and desires. That wasn't it at all. I simply asked for the title to my car to be signed over to me so I could go buy a car myself. I wasn't even asking for them to buy it. I appreciate him wanting to help me, but I don't want the help. He got so mad at me. He was just blowing up. I ended up in tears until pretty much 5:30 when Matt got to our house on Christmas night. I just didn't understand how he could get so mad at me SO fast? I took it very personal. He and my mom started fighting and it just made me so upset. Christmas night was fun though. It made it better. We went to my Aunts house and played a game and ate dinner then opened presents. It was good to see them and hang out with them. I wish we saw them more (just goes back to the whole regretting not spending more time with family) but life always gets in the way. So, that was my Christmas. It was 1/2 good, 1/2 bad. The whole car situation never got resolved. I gave up the fight. They still have the title, and I still can't buy myself a car. How stupid.
My Christmas wasn't to great this year. I was looking so forward to these three boxes that had been under the tree for quite some time. Of course I opened them first because I'd be so anxious and puzzled at what it could be? I seriously could not figure it out. I opened the first box and they were curtains for my room. I was happy because they matched my bedding that I got this summer for my birthday. I was glad, I'd asked for them. Then I opened the second box, and it was MORE curtains for my room. Why my mom felt like I needed like 6 boxes of curtains (with two panels in each box) I don't know. I was alittle disappointed with that because I didn't need all those curtains. I needed two boxes of curtains, four panels would suit me just fine. So, excited about what the other box could have been, I opened it up...valances for the curtains...there were three boxes of those. I seriously don't know WHAT my mom was thinking when she ordered all this stuff. It totalled out to be $800.00 worth of curtains and valances. That was basically my present because I'd already gotten suits and dress clothes for my job..so I was kind of disappointed Christmas day she wasted so much money. I'm going to take them back. I kept two boxes of curtains and that was it. I don't want anything extra fancy and all...I just wanted curtains to match my bedding. I was very disappointed on Christmas. I'd really and truly thought I was getting a car. My dad had been hinting and joking with me about it for awhile. I'd sent him pictures and links all year long of cars I like and what I'd want. My mom even got the hint and talked to my dad, but he said they have to "talk later" about it. So on Christmas I asked if I could have the title to my car. I wanted the car in my name so I could then go trade it in for something I wanted. I'd seriously been thinking and thinking about this for 2 years. Its honestly ALL I've wanted [except a ring from matt ;-)] but I seriously was going to go and trade my car in this week. I want a new car SO bad. My dad got all defensive though saying I couldn't afford a car and car insurance and I should be patient. He said him and my mom wanted to help me out on a down payment but they'd want to wait until May when I walked (for graduation) and all this other stuff. He said I made him feel like he never did anything right because he didn't fulfill my wants and desires. That wasn't it at all. I simply asked for the title to my car to be signed over to me so I could go buy a car myself. I wasn't even asking for them to buy it. I appreciate him wanting to help me, but I don't want the help. He got so mad at me. He was just blowing up. I ended up in tears until pretty much 5:30 when Matt got to our house on Christmas night. I just didn't understand how he could get so mad at me SO fast? I took it very personal. He and my mom started fighting and it just made me so upset. Christmas night was fun though. It made it better. We went to my Aunts house and played a game and ate dinner then opened presents. It was good to see them and hang out with them. I wish we saw them more (just goes back to the whole regretting not spending more time with family) but life always gets in the way. So, that was my Christmas. It was 1/2 good, 1/2 bad. The whole car situation never got resolved. I gave up the fight. They still have the title, and I still can't buy myself a car. How stupid.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Christmas Eve
Today is Christmas Eve. We went to see my grand mom (my dad's mom) this afternoon. I hadn't seen her in so long it is ridiculous and embarrassing how long it has been since I've seen her. She actually did really well today. She was engaged and pretty alert. She tried to make conversation which my dad says sometimes she just sits there and won't say anything at all. So seeing her more lively was a good thing. We took Gina (our dog) over there. That made her perk up alot. She talked to the dog and said some really funny things. We (my family and my dad's sister and husband) came back to the house for just a while. Then we went to dinner at the Country Club. The food wasn't good actually. It was all like casseroles and mushed up stuff. I like PLAIN things. I don't like my green beans in a casserole where it adds a thousand more unnecessary calories. The whole POINT in green beans is HEALTHY! DUH! So, needless to say I didn't eat that much.
I'm so annoyed right now though. I feel like my parents and family ignore everything I have to say. Nothing gets acknowledged, they all just ignore my words. I seriously don't understand what is wrong with me that I get overlooked ALL the time. I swear I'm like the ugly swan. No one wants to be around me or hear my voice or look at me. Its honestly how I feel. I feel like I'm the outcast and no good for anything. No one is happy for me about anything in my life. They all just think Christina is amazing. She just gets all the attention!
Well, I'm just so happy tonight! A night that should be fun isn't fun at all!
I'm so annoyed right now though. I feel like my parents and family ignore everything I have to say. Nothing gets acknowledged, they all just ignore my words. I seriously don't understand what is wrong with me that I get overlooked ALL the time. I swear I'm like the ugly swan. No one wants to be around me or hear my voice or look at me. Its honestly how I feel. I feel like I'm the outcast and no good for anything. No one is happy for me about anything in my life. They all just think Christina is amazing. She just gets all the attention!
Well, I'm just so happy tonight! A night that should be fun isn't fun at all!
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Not Good News
I don't have very good news. I have had alot of tooth pain since fall break. I just noticed I was really sensitive to cold things like grapes when I bite into them, cold drinks, or anything really. I went to the dentist finally on Monday and they said I have tooth recession. Which means the gum around my tooth has dropped down to where my root is exposed along with the nerves, hence why I feel so uncomfortable with cold things. I was sent to a specialist and actually got an appointment today. I have to have mouth surgery to fix it because the gums won't heal back to where they were. It is caused by 4 things: 1. braces (which I had) 2. Brushing your teeth really hard (which I do) 3. Using a whitening toothpaste (which I do) and 4. Genetics (which my grandmother has thin gums). SO...I'm really pretty much doomed to have this problem. I wish I'd know about this before so I could have taken the preventative measures like I was told about today. I have it all along the bottom teeth so I need to be extra careful or they could very well get lower as well. I have to get a sonicare toothbrush and brush with special toothpaste and all this stuff. I hope it helps with preventing it from getting worse. I am going to have to have surgery though for the gums on my bottom right side. I don't know when though because they are closed next week and I start my job January 2. I have no idea what my days off will be like and how many I'll get and when and all that good stuff..so I don't know when I can schedule to have this done. It's a pretty abrasive surgery. They take gum from the roof of my mouth and place it over the tooth that is exposed at the bottom where the gum is receding downwards. I'll have stitches and all. It is apparently painful.I can imagine. It hurts when i bite into something and burn the roof of my mouth. I'm nervous about it, but I don't know when it will happen so it makes it worse.
I'm getting really nervous about my job. I am so excited about it, but just the thought of this being a "real job" and my career scares me. I don't feel ready for this. I think everything is finally hitting me and sinking in. Graduating, moving home, getting a job, growing up...its all just hitting me like bricks. At first I was on a "high" from just finishing exams, packing up all my stuff, getting all my xmas shopping done, moving home, settling in, I was just super busy with everything and didn't even have time to really think about it all. Everything happend so fast, I had exams, I graduated, I got a job offer, I had to move home, pack and unpack, and do xmas shopping, all in like 3 days. Now things have settled down and its all just hitting me. I have so many emotions, I don't even know what they are honestly. I am just in a daze all the time. I don't feel "with it" or alive. I'm just like blah. Idk what is going on with me.
I'm getting really nervous about my job. I am so excited about it, but just the thought of this being a "real job" and my career scares me. I don't feel ready for this. I think everything is finally hitting me and sinking in. Graduating, moving home, getting a job, growing up...its all just hitting me like bricks. At first I was on a "high" from just finishing exams, packing up all my stuff, getting all my xmas shopping done, moving home, settling in, I was just super busy with everything and didn't even have time to really think about it all. Everything happend so fast, I had exams, I graduated, I got a job offer, I had to move home, pack and unpack, and do xmas shopping, all in like 3 days. Now things have settled down and its all just hitting me. I have so many emotions, I don't even know what they are honestly. I am just in a daze all the time. I don't feel "with it" or alive. I'm just like blah. Idk what is going on with me.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Thank You!!
Wow, what a crazy few days. I haven't posted in awhile. I have been really really busy. I graduated college and got a job!! I am now an Event Planner! I am sooo every excited. I start January 2, 2012. I am beyond Blessed I feel like. I am just amazed at the beauty of God's work in my life! I can't express how thankful I feel right now. I truly feel like the most Blessed girl on the planet! God works miracle's for sure! I seriously give Him all this glory! Thank you Lord for providing me with such an amazing opportunity as an awesome school that is up and coming. It is everything I've ever wanted!
THANK YOU!!!!
THANK YOU!!!!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Philippians 4:16
Today is a good day! It's payday! :-) Always love those days.
I am officially a college graduate and it feels so weird. I am happy about the fact I got a B in Accounting and an A in Finance. I don't know any of my other grades yet, my teachers are so slow at posting grades. Its annoying.
Yesterday I went with Melissa (my future boss) to see how an event was ran. She wanted me to see what all went on and how it was run before she actually hired me I guess. After the event was done she asked if I was still interested and of course I said yes. She said she had a very busy week this week and her boss makes her call everyone's references so after she did that she would get back to me next week. She definitely made it seem like I got the job. I also received an email from someone who works there that on Sunday night at their Christmas party Melissa was bragging on me to everyone. She was saying how she felt like I was so qualified and had great experiences and all. She thought I'd be perfect. Of course that made me feel really good! Finally someone believes in me. Later on in the afternoon yesterday she sent me an email saying I needed to go fill out a background release form so they can do a background check on me. Her exact words were, "I want to get the ball rolling." AGH!!! I can't believe I'm going to have a job January 2, 2012. I just graduated and I'm going to have a job lined up right after school. I am so incredible Blessed. Thank you Lord! I cant even begin to describe how Blessed I feel right now. The Lord definitely watches out for me and keeps His hand over me. Just everything I've been through throughout high school and college...like He has been the strength for me. He has watched over me, protected me, and guided me through. There were so many times I wanted to give up, to quit, to just not even try anymore, but He gave me the strength to get through each day. "ONE DAY AT A TIME" is definitely what I live by and what helped me get through this. I don't understand how people don't believe in God. Like if they just saw all the miraculous things that happen to me, just in my life, not even everyone else on the planet, how can they not see there is a God and He is real?! It just baffles me to think people are that ignorant and naive.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! -Philippians 4:16
I am officially a college graduate and it feels so weird. I am happy about the fact I got a B in Accounting and an A in Finance. I don't know any of my other grades yet, my teachers are so slow at posting grades. Its annoying.
Yesterday I went with Melissa (my future boss) to see how an event was ran. She wanted me to see what all went on and how it was run before she actually hired me I guess. After the event was done she asked if I was still interested and of course I said yes. She said she had a very busy week this week and her boss makes her call everyone's references so after she did that she would get back to me next week. She definitely made it seem like I got the job. I also received an email from someone who works there that on Sunday night at their Christmas party Melissa was bragging on me to everyone. She was saying how she felt like I was so qualified and had great experiences and all. She thought I'd be perfect. Of course that made me feel really good! Finally someone believes in me. Later on in the afternoon yesterday she sent me an email saying I needed to go fill out a background release form so they can do a background check on me. Her exact words were, "I want to get the ball rolling." AGH!!! I can't believe I'm going to have a job January 2, 2012. I just graduated and I'm going to have a job lined up right after school. I am so incredible Blessed. Thank you Lord! I cant even begin to describe how Blessed I feel right now. The Lord definitely watches out for me and keeps His hand over me. Just everything I've been through throughout high school and college...like He has been the strength for me. He has watched over me, protected me, and guided me through. There were so many times I wanted to give up, to quit, to just not even try anymore, but He gave me the strength to get through each day. "ONE DAY AT A TIME" is definitely what I live by and what helped me get through this. I don't understand how people don't believe in God. Like if they just saw all the miraculous things that happen to me, just in my life, not even everyone else on the planet, how can they not see there is a God and He is real?! It just baffles me to think people are that ignorant and naive.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! -Philippians 4:16
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Done With College
I took my last final ever today! I am officially done with college. I had finance today. I'm pretty confident I got an A on that. I'm anxious to see my grades now. They haven't posted any of them yet. I don't know why I always feel like I get the slowest teachers as far as posting grades. And only one of them uses blackboard so I can't even go on to see my grade that way. It feels good to be done though! I'm going to miss this though!
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